"When are you people going to learn? It's not about who's right or wrong. No denomination's nailed it yet, and they never will because they're all too self-righteous to realize that it doesn't matter what you have faith in, just that you have faith. Your hearts are in the right place, but your brains need to wake up." - Dogma

ATTENTION. I need new MSN friends. So if anyones reading this and would like to laugh/ponder/ at my amazing/silly banter, please add me at at januaryblue126@Hotmail.com And if youre a hater, uh, go away. END ATTENTION.

Like anyone will actually add. Pfft.

One nervous call down.

Two friendster profiles updated.

Three new mosquito scars on my left leg alone.

Four days till my first final exam.

Five oreo cheesecake fantasies down.

And about a bajillion mosquitoes Ive killed so far.

Is it possible to be so annoyingly numb that even the threat of exams looming near isnt enough for me to get out of bed and actually study?

The problem with rumours is that it doesnt affect the rumour mongers as much as it doesthe people talked about. And its a vicious never ending cycle. Because I dont think that when the girl set out to kiss the boy in public, or when that boy decided to break up with that girl in private, did any of them ever want themselves to be the topic of the day the very next day.

I am really nervous about a lot of things. My mom's health, which doesnt seem to be improving. Unwanted attention from people Id rather not pay attention to, and yet no attention from the ones I crave it from. I hate that obtaining a visa, for example, is taking such a long time and theres no assurance I'll even get it, which is really getting me down. Im nervous about my four final exams, which I havent even really begun studying for, despite my hours of staring at my books. Its like Im trying to will the knowledge into my head with osmosis, andthats a very far flung occurence. Im nervous about my hair, because its becoming really hard to manage again.Its like I pore over meaningless websites to fill my head with unnecessary information, because this info doesnt matter. And my exams do.

So why cant I get off the net and just study?

I think the world cup started today. But Im not sure.

Wait.

Yes. It did.

Go England!