“Life should be lived so vividly and so intensely that thoughts of another life, or of a longer life, are not necessary.”~Marjory Stoneman Douglas~


Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies


Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not?


Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power but we never say never

Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men

Can you imagine when this race is won
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders
We're getting in tune
The music's played by the mad men


Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat


Sooner or later they all will be gone/Why don't they stay young
It's so hard to get old without a cause/ I don't want to perish like a fading horse


Youth's like diamonds in the sun/ And diamonds are forever
So many adventures couldn't happen today


So many songs we forgot to play/ So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We let them come true


Forever young/ Do you really want to live forever, forever and ..

ever?

In this world
love has no color
yet how deeply my life
was stained by yours~ Izumi Shikibu


I finally GET it, people!

Raise your hand if you can drive!

...

ALL of you can? Grr! =P

Ladies andgentlemen, in the midst of all this study and work mayhem (and btw, my boss gave me chocolates yesterday for being exceptionally hard working...which is weird, and I think western bosses arent used to us slightly more giving hard working asian employees, yet very sweet of him coz i think he saw i was quite down and pressured), I managed to somehow whinge about my lack of a license or driving skills just enough to get my friend to pull over while driving, into an empty parking lot and make me get into the driver's seat.

And drive.

It was so liberating.

Yes. At the age of 20 and then some months, I had never driven till that point in my life, 11:11 pm, Perth time at the Cole's parking lot. No one had ever cared or wanted to before this friend. And what a patiently wonderful teacher my friend is.

Okay, it was an illegal lesson. But freak that! I learned to start the engine, change gears, release handbrake, clutch handling and accelarator, reversing, parking, turning...all within a 40 minute span.

Of course I faltered. Of course I made the car stop every now and again. And pressed just a LITTLE too hard on the accelerator

But well,I GET it, people. I never did before and I always mocked it before. And I never had the itch to learn before. Till now.

I understand the addiction to driving now. Ive read stories,and Ive heard songs, that all sing of the fulfilment one gets from driving down a stretch of long road, of driving with no purpose of getting anywhere, of just...driving and letting it be.

I think when I get my license, Ill be one of those people who drive just to drive, and in the process, find new places, make new friends, and maybe find little bits of me here and there too.

The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved...the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.
Jack Kerouac (1922 - 1969), "On the Road"

They said I'd never find someone better than him.
Screw you haters, I have.

They said I'd never have the guts to go paintball.
Screw you haters, I went a month ago and still have the freakin bruises to prove it.

They said Id never get through my accounting degree and scoffed when I told them I was doing accounting as oppose to what they believed I was more suited for, 'something in the media line because you talk so much, Izz.' They said Id probably flunk out of Accounting and switch to something 'easier'.

Screw you haters, I'm in my last week of my hopefully last semester of undergraduate studies.Accounting and Information Systems, baby, and Im *hopefully* graduating on time next february (pray for me? taxation is tough!:)




They said I had no chance of winning a post in Curtin Malaysia's student council last year, coz I was running independently and without a party, I didnt have enough support, I was using ugly pink posters yadayadayada.

Screw you haters, I got in. *thanks voters =)*

They said I would never be able to support myself or find a part time job in Perth that didnt entail waitressing or cashiering.

Screw you haters, I have a wonderful 9 to 5 office job doing accounts and my bosses and colleagues rock. And the only coffee I serve is my own, 2 spoons and 3 sugars.

They said Im too loud. Im too talkative. Im too reckless. Im too fat. Im too short. Im too confident. I dont have enough confidence. I care too much. I care too little. I laugh too loud. I cry too much. Im too sensitive. Im not sensitive enough. Im a prude. Im a tease. Im a nerd. I drink too much. I dance too much. I dont socialise enough.

Look.

Im never going to fit your idea of perfection.
Im never going to be what you want me to be.
Im never going to be all YOU aspire me to be.
What I can do, is be all that I can be.

And if that means cutting some people from my life...
If that means taking risks, for once in my life, taking risks...
Then so be it.

I will try and be all I can be. Not what you want me to be.
And dont YOU ever tell me otherwise.