when darkness has turned to gray

Ever noticed how when youre in a conversation with someone, theyre not *really*listening to what youre saying and neither are you *really* listening to them. I tested this out the other day when I was in one of my ironic moods and I talked to one person after another and in the midst of a chat, I just inserted a completely absurd offhand comment and it just simply didnt register to them and they went,"oh, blahblah blah" or if it DID register, they continued with an absurd story of their own,leading off with "really? well you wont BELIEVE what happened to ME when..."My island excursion was beautiful. It was eleven of us who went, we went via bus, train and boat and it was soo much fun, getting there itself. We rented out a villa for a night, would have been longer, but everyone had work the next day so that didnt happen. I went on the beach for the first time since I got here. We all swam in the freezing ocean. And I made a hole. Lol. And we sunbaked. Im tan all over again. I love the sun.We smoked shisha by the beach. We went cycling. I went aqua biking. We played funny drinking games. We had another mock proposal and a wedding. Haha. We met new people and picked flowers. We got glow in the dark sticks and played on the beach. We took random photos. We all bonded just a little bit more.
We didnt do anything mind altering. Not really. But for 48 hours, we were away from Curtin University and Perth, and we werent just young adults working towards our degree, we were young care free friends, and it felt like one of those american getaway from it all movies and it was good.
As for my work, my boss is picking me up in an hour to go over the new terms of my work. That should be interesting, I think. *nervous*

So Ive been working hard at work, you know.
Juggling it with university.
And I was trying to give my all and do a good job.
But my boss took me aside today and looked at me seriously and told me he had to talk to me later.
Which kinda freaked me out.
But he left before we could talk.
I had a feeling it was about the fact that I wasnt performing well. I was scared.
He called me ten minutes ago.
And offered me a different position.
To move to a different position within the company. One involving much much accounting.And that it was what he wanted to offer me when e first hired me ages ago anyway but only now did they get the contracts or whatever.
And he wanted to offer it to me before thinking of hiring anyone else.
Guys.
Im freakin speechless.

Im not trusting myself to go grocery shopping again unsupervised! I went with every intention of buying just detergent and coke and I came home with a receipt thats my arms length and then some. Grr. FINE if I had good heathful things but I checked and I haaaave tim tams, cookies, chips, calamari, prawns, body scrub, fudge, mousse, ice cream, cake boxes and strawberries? What the?!

Random.

so we have yet another week free coming up here and my friends and i, we decided, what the hell, lets throw some money away together and go away to a nice pretty island off the aus coast. Lets swim and lets drink and lets be young and lets be stupid, gosh knows I dont do anything stupid *sarcasm* :P. Its warming up here so the weather should just be perfect for cycling, swimming, you know, things other than the unhealthy activities of shisha drinking dancing that we've all been up to of late. Ive already warned the girls that anyone not in a bikini top gets their t shirts cut off.

And you think Im jokin.

Rarely do all, as in ALL 20 or so of the friends Ive made over the past 3 months here and I ever really have the time to see each other and it was fantastic that last weekend, we did. We piled up in 4 cars and over the course of two days and two nites, we went partycrashing and randomness and joyriding and meals and club hopping and even tried our luck at a casino. Okay, I didnt. But I watched and cheered them on and blew kisses. Im more of a dancer myself and i guess dancing is a high Ive come to appreciate. Generallly it was just a weekend I enjoyed muchly and there will be memories to treasure and use as blackmail. hehe.

I know I havent really written anything substantial of late. But Im happy. And I think I only write my indepth blogs that I became noted for when Im not.

Ill let you all know when Im depressed again.

"Everyone thinks Brad Pitt has it great because he married Angelina Jolie. I think he has it terrible, because when Angelina Jolie is giving you a blow job, what do you tip your head back and think of to help you finish? You have nothing left just Jesus on a polar bear in the middle of the snow saying, You greedy motherf*cker, Ive got nothing for you."-John Mayer


I am going pole dancing next week.

How fun is that?

My girls and I are planning to bring lots of monopoly money. Plans of stuffage and hilarity galore. And if the boys are lucky they get a free show afterwards. Hahahaha.

On that note, I have a 50% midsemester in 2 hours.

Midsemesters ruin my fun.

Switching from l'oreal facial wash to neutrogena seems to be doing me a wonder. Tea tree oil helping more than I expected, and bioessence's deep marvel masks are soooo soothing. Moisturizers are my new best friend. Body scrubs are rejuvenating. I love the body shops liquid foundation. Eyeliners are my thing. And schwarwhatchamallit hair masks seriously help make my hair sooo shiny and soft.

Tell me what you use.

My point here is that whenever I was tired of it all, I binged on food. I could spend the entire night slowly going thru the contents of my refridgerator and even my reserves. Id snack on nutella on toast and bananas, hot dogs and mee goreng, whole wheat bread and chocolate, ice cream with milo on top, roti johns, ahh, kill me with the calories, I binged and yes, I binged. I never felt horrible afterwards unlike other bingers, I dont know why not.

But lately, binging doesnt really have the same oomph. Though I tried, you know. I tried to make do with lemony fish fillest, meat pies, frozen cheesecakes and then some. But maybe its because Ive been at it for so long in my life that now its just not...fulfilling, if thats possible. I dont feel as good, I feel rotten and bloated.

But when I do my facial masks and pedicures and whatever not, just lock my self in my room and listen to music and read and just have me time, I just feel so rejuvenated.I spend so much time out and about that I dont think that Im abusing my body by not pampering it. Eating too much is becoming something Im slowly having to face isnt good for me (:P) and I get fuller faster here probably due to the whole bigger portions thing.

But pampering me is good....and I cant believe I just updated you guys...about this.

the night is the hardest time to be alive, and 4 a.m. knows all my secrets

My flatmate made cookies with weed meshed in with the cookie dough and didnt tell me when I was happily eating them, because really, when have I ever declined food? So now due to this ignorance and her telling me AFTER I ate about 7 cookies, I now have weed in my bloody system. -_- Way to go, izzah.

I really do not see the *point* of weed.

By the by, it was week free!!

..and I didnt get a whole lot done. I spent it working at my job and by the end of the work week, I was exhausted. Holding down a 9 to 5 job is not easy, and Im feeling the pinch of juggling work with study. But I can earn more in a week here than a month back home. Australia has too much money.

I love shisha. Its just too good. Especially when youre just chillaxing with a good group of marvelous friends.

I am on facebook and new pictures are up there if anyone would care to look and I have also sent them out to some of you. If any of you want pics of my australian adventure so far sent personally, yell here and I will send them via email. Photobucket hates me and I cant load anything up.

Even though Im in curtin Australia, the bloody censors still affect my usage!!! -_-

I went running yesterday. It felt good to sweat. And not club induced sweat either. lol

And pictures wise, two seperate people commented that I looked...happy.

And perhaps for the first time in a long while, I really quite am. :)

http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,20349888-2,00.html

Steve Irwins dead.

And plutos no longer a planet.

I dont like this past few days so far.